Today I wanted to do something different then what I have been doing throughout this social distancing. I have been getting up and putting on normal clothes. Clothes like a t shirt and jeans or shorts. I did that today too. I got up, took holly out, came back in and took a shower and put my Skillet t shirt and a pair of jeans on. This is fine but its not me. I am not one who usually wears jeans and a t shirt. I wanted to do something that made me feel like me. So I got up, pulled out one of my favorite dresses and put it on. Then went a did my hair. These simple things help me feel like me. Dresses are my favorite thing to wear. And my hair actually being done helps me feel beautiful. Dresses and hair being done helps me feel beautiful and that’s what I need during this time. During this time of staying in your house without social interaction. During this time of sweats and pajamas. (for the record I have put on normal clothes everyday since the beginning of this.) This time is not a time of makeup and hair done and dresses and happiness. This is a time of sweats, pajamas, no makeup and dread. Dread of what is going to happen to loved ones. Dread of what this world is coming to. Fear of what happens if I get sick? Fear of giving it to loved ones. But it doesn’t have to be. I’m taking back this time. I’m making this my time. If I want to do my hair and wear a pretty dress to feel like myself, I’m going to do just that. Just because everything in the world is saying one thing, it doesn’t mean that you have to listen to it. If this is my time, I’m doing my hair to feel pretty. If this is my time, I’m wearing that dress that makes me feel good. If this is my time, I’m gonna do my makeup as a form of expression. If this is my time, I’m gonna make it count. I’m not going to sit here in a place of fear and dread because of the outside world because guess what? My God is bigger. He is bigger than the virus going around. He is bigger than the fear. He is bigger than the uncertainty. He is bigger than the dread. And if I know my God, He wants the best for me. He wouldn’t want me to sit here in a place of fear and dread. He would want me to pick myself up, fix my tiara, and attack the world. He would want me to do what feels most like me in a good and healthy way that is not going against Him. He would want me to feel like myself. In these times, doing little things that make you feel like yourself is very important. Especially in these times, this is important. You don’t want to lose who you are in this time of fear and panic. You want to find yourself. Who you are is important. You can make a difference in this and you can’t if you cannot find yourself. The true way to find yourself, is by finding who you are in God. That’s how you truly find yourself and become secure in that. I know who I am in Christ even if I forget that sometimes. But sometimes I lose myself in trying to fit in with the world. But I don’t need to fit it. I wasn’t called to fit in. I was called to stand out. And so were you. You can stand out by being yourself. Being who you truly are is important. That is when God shows the most through you. Today do something that makes you feel most like you. Hold onto hope and stay strong. Madison Rae <3
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