There are people who do not believe that God exists or that He doesn’t still perform miracles, but I’m here to tell you He does exist and miracles do happen. How do I know, well I had a miracle.
A lot of people know about me having depression. They just don’t know how bad it is, well was. It can get pretty dark and hard to do anything. I was struggling hard core last year from March to November. It was not pretty. I had a relapse in March and close to one later in the fall. It just was not a good year for me.
I was having one of my darkest days one November day. It was horrible. I just didn’t care. I didn’t want to do anything. I just couldn’t care less.
The week before I had started going to a group at my church called 1824 for 18-24 year olds. It was a blast. I absolutely loved it and made a new friend. I was looking forward to it. Well at least a little bit. I didn’t want to get out of bed that day. I just wanted to stay in bed and sleep all day and just not interact with people and just stay in my little bubble.
That November day was hard. It was getting harder and harder to stay strong. At that point it didn’t seem like something I had to do. I went to bed that night wishing I would sleep for a couple days. Then I woke up the next day.
It was weird, I didn’t feel down. I almost felt happy. No this wasn’t possible, was it? How could I go from feeling so down I didn’t want to keep going to happy. It didn’t make sense. Now the past week I had been trying to read my Bible everyday or listen to a godly podcast. My faith was renewed after kind of walking away.
How could I go from dreading life the night before to being happy and joyful the next morning like depression was never there. There is only one explanation and that explanation is God. I couldn’t believe this. I knew miracles happen but to happen to me. I was in awe. I couldn’t believe it. It didn’t just last that day but the next day and the next. And I’m even more happy and joyful today. My heart could just burst with how much joy God has put in my heart.
It’s hard to believe that something so amazing could happen to some one like me. But that’s God. He does amazing things. He is so so good and I just want to yell it off the roof top. God is faithful. He loves you and He’s there for you. He’s there waiting for you to come looking for Him so He can run to you.
I know this may be something that’s hard to believe and i understand if you don’t believe it. But I do and all that matters is that God is good and He is faithful and He loves you. God gets all the glory in this because I had no part in this. It’s all God.
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Madison
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