Y’all, I am going to tell you about something that has changed my relationship with God and kinda with myself. Are y’all ready?
A prayer journal.
I know that was so anticlimactic but this has been something that has really changed my life. I got this journal back in February with the intentions of starting right then and there in writing in it consecutively. If you know anything about me, you know me writing consecutively in a journal just doesn’t happen. I tried this last year when I was working at walmart. I did it consecutively for a couple months then just stopped and forgot about it or just didn’t feel like writing. Can I tell you how many journals I have started and have like 5-10 pages written in and then nothing else? (Pst.. It’s a lot)
So I wrote in this journal once in February, twice in March, a couple more times in April, and have written in it almost every day since May started. And boy have I noticed a difference.
What is a prayer journal?
For me it is a place where I can just pour my heart out to God. It’s like I am talking/writing to an old friend. I am honest about where I am out, I tell Him thank you for the amazing things He does (like waking me up daily), I pray for others (you never know who is praying for you), and I just “talk” I talk to Him about my day, about my fears, about things that are coming up, about things that I am trying to trust Him with. This is a place where I come before God and bear it all. I let myself get into that spot that I don’t let people see because God already knows.
There have been tears while writing in my prayer journal. There have been smiles while writing in my prayer journal. There have been all these emotions and it’s amazing to have a space where eventually I can go back and look and see how God answered those prayers.
In a lot of the earlier entries in this journal, I talk about needing an apartment and how bad my life at home was living with my brother. I can see now how God answered that prayer and was faithful. It is so cool to be able to look back and say God I see you. I see how you moved in this.
Why has this changed my life?
Well if I can stay consistent with it, I will have a place to look back and see my growth, which is really important to me. It lets me focus on praying and be able to drown out those random thought trains that come when I am praying in my head. It let’s me be able to actively engage in something while praying which also helps me stay focused.
Talking to God can change your life. It just can not even because it can become a habit but because of Who you are talking too. God does amazing things in life. God wants to do amazing things for you in your life. You just have to let Him.
God wants us to go to Him with everything. God can handle it all. He can handle your anger. He can handle your grief. He can handle it all. He is always there waiting for you to go to Him and just talk and sit in His presence. He loves when His children come to talk to Him, and we are all His children.
I want to encourage you to start a prayer journal. Find a journal and just start pouring your heart out to God. No one else has to see what you write, It can stay between you and God if that is what you want. You can invite others in. You can intervene for others.
Start a prayer journal. Write in it for 30 days. And see the amazing things God does.
Hold onto hope and stay strong.
Madison Rae <3
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