Do You Know?

Do you know?

Do you know what it is like for your own mind to be your enemy?

Do you know what it’s like to constantly be reminded of memories you want to forget?

Do you know what it’s like to look in the mirror and not recognize who you are?

Do you know what it’s like to look at a picture and not be able to tell which one you are?

Do you know what it’s like to have a battle in your brain?

Do you know what it’s like to just want to give everything up?

Do you know what it’s like to not find a reason to keep going?

Do you know what it’s like to not know why you are still fighting?

Do you know what it’s like to look in the mirror and want to scream?

Do you know what it’s like to not be able to stop eating?

Do you know what it’s like to think even orange juice will make you gain weight?

Do you know what it’s like to want to harm yourself?

Do you know what it’s like to deal with those urges?

Do you know what it’s like to stop from engaging in those self harm tendencies?

Do you know what it’s like to be so depressed you don’t even want to open up your eyes?

Do you know what it’s like to be so anxious you’re picking at your skin and pulling your hair?

Do you know what it’s like to have panic attack after panic attack?

Do you know what it’s like to basically let someone else control your emotions?

Do you know what it’s like to not help but idolize someone and can't stop?

Do you know what it’s like for your whole world to revolve around a person?

Do you know what it’s like to have pure joy?

Do you know what it’s like to laugh without care?

Do you know what it’s like to be happy about the small things?

Do you know what it is like to be able to smile and mean it?

Do you know what it is like to have so much happiness you can't help but be giddy?

Do you know what it’s like for the minuscule things to bring you the most joy?

Do you know what it’s like to be super happy after being super down?

Do you know what it’s like to be able to smile after not being able to?

Do you know what it’s like to have so much energy you are bursting?

Do you know what this is like?

I know I do.

Hold onto hope and stay strong.

Madison Rae <3